It's Not the End of the World (Part 1)

Here is the beginning of my post. And here is the rest of it. Apparently they have this omniscient view, and everything is going to be just fine. Hell, I could have told you that, but it doesn't help right now. Have to also mention that when people aren't in the best of places, it usually means they're not being rational, it goes with the territory. It doesn't mean that you can tell them it's 'bullshit'.

*breathes* ok I've had my rant.

Yesterday I had to get rid of a very unhealthy aspect of my life, and also a (seemingly) very large part of my life. I now realise this isn't quite correct (the whole 'irrational thoughts' idea was more than just an idea). It's easy when you don't see it around you, and it isn't there to remind you just how sick you were feeling.

Day Two into the "I'm going to get better" plan, it decides to show up. Generally, this is where I convince myself I can handle it, and it won't be that bad 'this time'. Seems like a test. Am I going to stick to my guns? Am I going to see if I can handle it? How are you going to react to this situation? Are you going to be pro-active in this situation?

to be continued...